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[edit]I think I shall post this on every single one of my blogs. (:[/edit]
I feel so empty.
So hollow.
Damn.
So numb I can't even cry.
The warmups and debriefs were the best parts.
Warmup sessions. They were just so inspiring and moving. Especially when one by one everyone came out to dance. When we all just did what our bodies wanted to do in time to the music. Not caring what other people thought. Not caring about how we looked. Only knowing that there's a strong urge in there, to dance, and dance, and dance.
Being one with the music. Being one with the people around you; these people whom you've breathed with, laughed with, cried with, talked with, confided in... but most important of all, DANCED with.
Cheering each other on. Hugging. Dancing. Pairing! My darling partners Larissa, Junning, CHIT! Feeling that bonding, our love for each other, for NYMD as one, pouring out unchecked from our hearts. Voices thick with emotion as we told each other things we'd never dared or never had time to say before. Or just wasn't in the right mood to say.
We were in tears by then, but it was just so natural. Emotional, magic. In touch with our souls. I think this really helped us to emote and GIVE during the performance, for we could feel the magic in the air, had been in touch with our emotions so we could easily draw it all out and give to the audience.
I find it so damned hard, to imagine that seven days ago, we were still at CGH, covered with bruises, so tired and stressed we just wanted to take a break. Moaning. Groaning.
Five days ago, getting lectured by Raj for not having enough urgency.
Three days ago, too numb to think or emote.
Two days ago, our first show. Our first encounter with the emotions, the breathtaking power, the PASSION.
And then yesterday. The second and final show. I didn't think there could be a better, I thought it'd just be "just as good", but no. There was so much more power, emotion, PERFORMANCE.
Everyone who saw the show said it was good. My sister, for one, who usually has VERY VERY VERY high expectations, gave a 8.5 to 9 upon 10. I was amazed. Previously, she gave a professional contemporary dance show 7/10. Which shows just how much we have touched her. And Mrs Teo! Gosh, when she came out she was in tears. And all those who came:
Shihui - Liying - Jing Xiao - Eileen - Raashidah - Ming - Hern - Cheryl - Zephyr - Ningjia - Le En - Anneyz - Hongz - Xin Ying - Ren Yi - Shanya - Vanessa - Kristin - MRS CHEONG! <3333
Thanks, all of you. For all the encouragement, for the support.
Thanks for the flowers - shihui ying jinx eileen raash ming hern karen GUENYIK! Ohmygosh that was such a wonderful surprise!!! <333333333 And Shanya's M n Ms! :D
And, how can I ever forget my fellow darling MDers?
Chit! For all that you've done for me, sticking through these few months with me, comforted me, laughed with me, letting me confide in you, being CRAZY and making me laugh... Basically just for being such a dear. Helping me to open up my heart knowing you won't hurt me on purpose; helping me to have confidence in not only me, but everyone around me. (: "You raise me up to more than I can be."[edit]Oh alright, and for tying an awesome half-ponytail for me on the first night! :D[/edit]
Felicia! For the APPLE, for being my special make-up artiste - the eyeliner [even though you made me tear -_-], the pretty eye-shadow, the ELECTRIC BLUE MASCARA, the AWFUL curl at the corners of my eyes; for being STUPID and HILARIOUS and for making me LAUGH MY ASS OFF. Just for being my whacky feljie. (:
Sharon! Even though I doubt she'll read this. She was the start to my character development. Seriously. She inspired me, to step out and take on leadership role. To test myself, step up to the challenge, seeing where I sorely lack so that I can work on it. Encouraging me when I was on the brink of giving up, helping me see that it's all going to be worth it. For being like the elder sister I never had in my REAL sister. <333333333
Bernice! For being APPLEY ROSY CHEEKED BERBER. (: For being PRETTY and smiling and cheerful. For pushing me on when the going got tough. "When the going gets tough, the tough gets going." Stay strong Bernicikins! (:
Kerri! The laughing crazy whacky bouncy LABOOBOO nutty silly BLURPy KERRIKINS! :D Just for being MAD and making me laugh so much! You rock at relieving stress (: Will miss you dear. LOADS. ): REMEMBER I LOVE YOU!
Jessica! For our share of good times and bad. For going through all the scoldings and tears together with me. "A burden shared is a burden halved." Keep working at it! Bring out the best in you! Let's SHINE together :D
Eli! Just for being there when I needed to talk. Not as in confide, but like, just chat. Maybe it's cos we've both experienced similar stuff, that we can talk about almost anything and everything. Thanks for being my FUNNY MUMMY :D
Yunyi! For being in To Love You More with me! So that I have someone to be with in the wings. If not I'll be so lonely ):
Jolene! For being petite and sweet! :P For being confident, but no way arrogant, so that it spills over and affects other people, helping them to believe in themselves too (: And for the hugs! THANKS!
Aileen! For saying I have nice brown eyes! For having such a nice butt to whack x) Just for being so stupid :D
All the NYMDers!! The Alumni. Sec4s. Sec3s. Sec2s. We're ONE, and forever shall remain.
Hat Full Of Stars is now over. There's no going back.
All that's left is stardust. And an empty, hollow feeling.
But we know the memories, the love, the bonding, the PASSION; it will all live on. The MAGIC will live on.
We've proved ourselves. Shown the whole world what we are - rising stars, each finding our way; following the trails of our hearts.
We've stood out for the whole world to see. They have looked into our hat full of stars.
They've seen us.
Shining with an inner flame, alight with the magic of a brand only we possess.
It'll go down in history - Nanyang Modern Dance, A Hat Full Of Stars 2006.
Sealed with our joys and sorrow.
Sealed with our blood, sweat, and tears.
Truly, it's NYMD forever.
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